Chapter fifteen

Waking up the next morning Jon could see Dot putting on her robe.

“Hey!” he pouted. She looked at him and smiled. “Good morning.”

“You know, there’s a reason why I didn’t dress you in your sleep shirt last night, darling. I had plans with you this morning.” He said still pouting.

“Aww, that’s sweet, honey, but our guests will be here soon and I still need to do some preparation.” Dot replied grinning.

“Oh, it’s not that late. Come here, baby. I need you!” To clarify his comment, he pushed the blanket down, so Dot could see his member standing in proud attention. She chuckled.

“Well, it seems that “Little Johnny” needs someone.”

“Oh, yeah” he said and started moving his hips up and down, making his penis jump.

“Jon!” Dot’s eyes grew big and she could feel the heat in her face.

“Are you flushing, Dot?” He laughed. “I can’t believe that!”

Her eyes gleamed evilly and before Jon could say anything else, she straddled him and let him slip inside her. Jon gasped a little shocked. Her eyes shined triumphantly.

“Oh, you naughty little…come here.” He growled and rolled them over. Being on top now, he started moving fast. Their tongues danced hungrily with each other and within a couple minutes they both found their release.

“Wow! What a quickie.” Jon laughed.

“Yeah, indeed.” Dot said. „And now Jon, get out and off of me!” She added, pushing with her hands at his shoulders.

His jaw dropped. “What? I think no woman ever said that to me.” But he moved.

“That’s why I AM your wife, honey!” she said and kissed his still open mouth.

“Whoa, whoa. Where are you going?” he asked.

“What does it look like Jon? To the bathroom.” She shook her head. Jon jumped out of the bed.

“Wanna shower together with me?” he asked nibbling her naked shoulder.

“NO!” she pushed him away.

“But who will wash your back?” he pouted playfully.

“I’m more than capable doing that on my own, Jon!” Dot replied and tried to walk into the bathroom.

“Oh, come on.” He tried to grab her by her waist, but before he could get a hold of her, his hands were on his back and his face was pressed against the wall. Oh, shit! Karate, I forgot.

“You stay here Jon! We don’t have time for that.” Dot said and hit his naked ass playfully before letting go of his hands.

“Oh, yeah baby. Spank me!” He said wiggling his rear end.

“Maybe another time, honey. “ Dot replied laughing and closed the bathroom door. He could hear the lock clicking. Great!…and now?



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A couple hours later they were all sitting in the living room, waiting for the huge tent to warm up. Steph and Jesse were playing outside with their cousin. Kris stood by the window and watched them with a small smile on her face. Somehow it always calmed her when she saw her siblings playing. Their innocent happiness surprised her everyday again. It could be different and she wondered more then ones how it would have been to have a peaceful childhood.

Jon could see that she wasn’t comfortable with this situation. Even though the only new faces were the ones from his brothers and their families, her uneasiness was clearly visible on her face and the fact that Carol was there didn’t help either. Fortunately she already met Tico and Hugh during the last week, when the guys were here for recording. The problem right now was that the room was loaded and she had to sit close to someone.

“Kris, I know you’ve been through a lot, but…” Jon began softly.

“NO!” Kris interrupted him and turned away from the window facing the people in the room.

“You have NO idea!” her eyes were gleaming angrily, her voice was strong. He was saying that all the time, but he had no idea…no idea at all.

“What?” Jon asked irritated.

“You have no idea what I’ve been through! You have no idea how it was to live with her every single day.” She paused briefly. “You all really should stop thinking that I’m sad because of my mother’s death. Because I AM NOT!” She nearly screamed now. “I’m happy that it’s over!”

Everyone was staring at her in disbelieve. Jon wanted to stand up, but Dot put her hand on his thigh, shaking her head no. This was the emotional explosion she was waiting for all the last days.

Breathing heavily Kris continued. “I lost my mother twelve years ago. That day she started taking those drugs from this guy…and I miss THAT woman.” Jon looked at her shocked.

Kris found his eyes. “The person you knew didn’t exist anymore the last twelve years. She died of an overdose of cocaine, heroin, ecstasy, alcohol…maybe painkillers…whatever! They didn’t find out for sure.” She stopped again. “She was never there for me. She wasn’t there at my first day at school or when I needed to go to the doctor and I really hate doctors…” Tears started shining in her eyes

“…she never made me breakfast or dinner, kissed me goodnight or hugged me. I never could count on her…I learned the hard way that not all people are nice and I should better lock my door… that night when one of her dealers or suitors came into my room when I was seven.” Kris sobbed.

Her nightmare, Jon thought…..oh, please no! His hands clenched to fists. This bastard!!

“Fortunately he was way too stoned to get it up and I could push him off me.” Thank god, Jon closed his eyes briefly.

“But she didn’t care that I was screaming for her…I swore myself I would only count on myself, I would never trust anyone again, I would never love again, I would never get hurt again!” screaming the last words Kris ran off the room.

They all looked at each other shocked. Even Carol wasn’t saying anything, but leaning into her husbands arms for comfort. Richie looked at Jon and saw the horror in his eyes. He felt guilty not being there for his daughter when she needed him the most. David sat there with clenched teeth and saw Tico getting up and walking down to the gym. He needed to work his anger off.

Finally Jon got up and followed her. She was standing with her back to him when he entered the room. He could see her shoulders trembling, his heart arched if he could only take this pain and fear off her.

“Kris…” he said softly.

“You weren’t there…” She whispered. Jon swallowed hard. She turned around slowly, tears streaming down her face.

“You weren’t there. Why?” She repeated her question.

“Oh, sweetie.” He wanted to hold her in his arms and comfort her, she looked so lost. “I didn’t know your mother was pregnant.”

That was the answer she’d expected. But was it the truth?

“Do you really think I would have let you with her, if I knew about all that?” He asked.

She shook her head. No, he wouldn’t. Not the way he was acting since she was here. The way he was treating the little ones. His kids meant everything to him. Finally she realized that her mother was the parent who wasn’t acting the common way; that he would do anything to take care of her; that he really wanted to help her.

The tears ran stronger down her face, Kris whipped them away angrily. He shouldn’t see her weakness.

“Sweetie….You know that you are save here…and you trust us already…” She looked at him…scared. “You don’t lock your door at night.“ he explained. Slowly he stepped forward. “You can always count on me, Kris. It doesn’t matter what will happen…I’m there. And I swear to God if I never get my hands on that bastard who came into your room, I’ll kill him.”

Kris could see the emotions in his face. He really meant that. Jon took another step towards her. “Kris, I think you even love this family already.” She shook her head vehemently with eyes wide in shock.

Jon sighed. Oh, yeah that thing called love. He could remember pretty well how scared he was, but fortunately he had Dot. She didn’t give a damn about his stupid behaviour. She was able to make him see that he doesn’t have to be afraid of his emotions, and especially not of love.

“It’s ok to show emotions, Kris.” She looked at him unsure. “It’s not a sign of weakness and especially not when you show your emotions to me.” He added softly.

“I will always be there for you, sweetie…even if you don’t want it! Simply because you are my daughter.” He reached for her hands. “Come here, sweetie!” and pulled her softly in his arms.

In the first moment Kris tensed again, but then her body relaxed. She started sobbing uncontrollable, pressing herself closer to him, taking in his scent, her hands clenched in his shirt.

Jon just held her and when her knees buckled, he picked her up and sat down with her on the couch. She curled herself up in his lap, pressing her heated face to his shoulder like small kids do. He cradled her, telling her everything was over, that he would protect her from now on.

After a while Jon could see Dot looking around the corner. Seeing Jon holding Kris in his arms, she nodded slightly and closed the door.

“You’re shirt is all wet…” Kris said suddenly and tried to rub the wet spot away.

Jon smiled. “That’s ok, sweetie.” He took her hand and kissed her palm. Thinking about his next comment, he softly swept the blond streak from her face. Framing her face with his hands, he said. “I love you, Kris.”

Her eyes grew wide. “I…I…..I…” she stuttered and started trembling again.

“Shhhh, it’s okay, sweetie. I know you need some time to figure that out. But I think it’s important that you know how I feel.” Soothingly he rubbed her back.

“Okay?” he asked.

“Ok.” she answered and leaned her head back against his chest. His arms engulfed her protectively. Kris sighed. She could hear his heartbeat…this feels good, she thought the minute before she felt asleep; the first time without nightmares. Smiling Jon watched her.